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Thursday, March 30, 2006

Confession Time =/

There are certain things that I do not like about my friends/family and I'm going to list them down ((= Just a reminder to me.

Why do I dislike :
1) Hsuen
Because I can't be like her >> happy-go-lucky outside(although I doubt anyone can really be like that). Can joke even when ppl are not in a good mood. Insensitive sometimes.
2) Lin
Because sometimes she doesn't know when to stop joking
3) CH
Because I've never seen such a unique character that sometimes I cannot tolerate or understand.
4) WeiLi
Because when she is in a bad mood, she is scary.
5) YuTing
Because sometimes she's insensitive to some issues.
6) Matt
Because sometimes he don't know how to have empathy
7) Cheryl
Because sometimes she talks to me like I'm a retard.
8) Mill
Because sometimes she has attitude problems.

But there are more good points in them than bad. For example:

1) Hsuen
She is very funny and sweet. Likes to be "lame". Fun to be with. Gives a lot of "advice". Can sometimes successfully cheer ppl up.
2) Lin
She is helpful and is a very loyal friend. Very smart. Likes to read and is usually nice to be with. A friend I can count on.
3) CH
A joker/lamer that makes me laugh often. Knows a lot of crappy stuff. Comfortable to be with and is sometimes a good adviser. Often talks more rubbish than sense but is a very funny guy. Can be depended on and will always be a special person to me.
4) WeiLi
A very cute friend that has a "unique" voice. Interesting character. Believes in her beliefs. Quite a sotong but overall she's a good friend. Cool to be with.
5) YuTing
A friend who is there to comfort. Great listener. Studies very hard. Listens to her parents and will not let others bully her. Peaceful when with her.
6) Matt
A friend which I love, admire a lot. Usually always there to help me when I'm in trouble or upset. Cheers ppl up in his "special" way. Hilarious and is a blur head. Very helpful and thoughtful. Happy to be with.
7) Cheryl
The maths freak. Funny. Likes to say that she's fat. Makes ppl feel better when they tell her their problems. Crazy cousin. Loves ice cream and Man U. Is nice to everybody in whole. Feels relaxed to be with.
8) Mill
A great sister. In contrast, her character is interesting. Does not follow others but do what she believes in. Daring and is a good listener. Likes to crap. Very intelligent. Good in doing htmls. A funny person and I'm happy to have her as my sister. A friend that you can count on in times of need. Feels free to be with.

And of course, there are bad points in me that I want to say.

1) I'm sometimes insenstive too
2) I don't use my brains before speaking
3) I have major mood swings
4) I tend to take ppl forgranted sometimes
5) Easily pissed off
6) Very impatient
7) Does not keep my word sometimes
8) Likes to rush things at the last minute
9) Jumps to conclusions too quickly
10) Jokes around when not supposed to
11) Talks nonsense most of the time
12) Tends to scold ppl for the slightest things
13) Likes to judge others when I do not have the right to
14) Assume a lot of things
15) Things that I don't want others to do onto me but do it myself onto others

Yups yups. I suddenly had this urge of writing these points down. To me, it's a learning point. Like I said. I judge ppl when I'm not supposed to. So I'll try to accept others and improve in my flaws ^^ It's a blessing to have all these ppl in my life (= I'm greatful. I thank my wonderful Creator and saviour for having put these ppl into my world. XD

Sunday, March 12, 2006

When I read CL's blog post just now, it was dated some time ago. I was really sad. I can't explain the feelings when i read that post. But it seemed true. No one will really know what she feels inside. No one can explain the hurt she has to go through. No one will never understand the pain that she has to suffer. Not even I. Compared to her, I think I'm very lucky. Upon seeing the post, my heart sunk. With tears in my eyes, I never knew that CL was having this torture for the past 2 years. I'm really sad. I've failed to see this. I never knew only until recently. Why get affected by the matters of the heart when in the end, you'll realise that it's just a big mistake? I can't do anything to help her. Only not to mention this. The quickest way to a heavy heart is to let true love reamin unspoken. The quickest way to a broken heart is to be deceived by the ones you love. The greatest love is to love and be loved in return. No one will be us. No one will know. Only God knows. Only He can take us from this pain.


I really wish I could help you CL. I'm sorry.

Sunday, March 05, 2006

Funny as it seems. You make me dream, doing the little things of little things you do. (Little Things - Son of Dork)

Common Test is over! Not very happy with me results! =[ Maths and Amaths especially! I excepted A1!!! Noooo.. =[ Hais.. Anyway, it's a tough life. Chiang Lin is into depression mode. The poor girl. Well, I cant help her in this aspect cause' she has to realise it herself =/ Cheer Up Linnie. No one wants to see you sad. Really..

Haven't been studying lately. I'm supposed to study!! But i'm addicted to Rakion! Roar =) Everything is rather fine. But time really passes very fast =[ I'm sick now but I'm still eating M&M CHOCOLATE!! Hahz ^^ Who cares.. Heehee.

Oh well, there's tons to do! Cyaz